see that girl? Yeah, she’s the one who stuck up for you,
the one who stayed up til’ midnight just to talk to you.
She’s the one whose heart flutters
when she gets a call or text from you,
the one who says good morning every time she gets the opportunity,

 and the one who prays she’ll get a chance to say goodnight.
Boy, she’s the one who fought for you,
the one that missed you and loved you. 

But by the time you realize that she’s the girl you want,
she’ll already be with the guy who figured it out.

I waited for you for so long.
I watched my phone, every night,
waiting on a phone call that somewhere
in the back of my mind I knew I'd never get.
I just wanted to hear you say that you were sorry for hurting me,
and that maybe you wanted to get back together.
I hoped and hoped that you will come back to me
and just know that I missed you.
Because I thought you missed me too,
you just didn't know what you wanted.
But, I finally realized that you didn't miss me at all,

 that I was definitely not what you wanted,
and that I never meant that much to you anyway.

Even though I'm moving on, I will never forget you.

All because you were my first true love.

And there will come a time in my life

when I will thank you for that because by you breaking my heart,

it made me a little bit stronger

and you made me a little bit closer to finding the one that I'm meant to spend the rest of my life with.

The scary thing is; all the pain you put me through,

with a snap of your fingers I'd run back so fast.

So I bet you love to know you can have me at any moment if you want.

He may not be the most attractive guy out there.
He may not be the smartest, or the most well-dressed.
But hey, you know what?
He has my heart, and I love him exactly the way he is.
I don't care what you have to say about him.
That's your own damn opinion.
Actually, who are you to judge anyway?
He makes mistakes, I know.
He's not perfect, and I don't expect him to be.

 But in my eyes, he's everything I could ask for.

I don't want to live the rest of my life thinking about you
and dreaming of what might have been 

if we would have stayed together in spite of the miles that separate us.
I can't live my life happily knowing you're with someone else.
That would kill a part of me. 

What we have is rare.
It's too beautiful to just throw it away.
I don't want it to end this way.
I don't want it to end at all.
I can't force you to stay with me, 

but no matter what happens in my life, 

I'll never forget my time with you.

Maybe this is supposed to be the end of us,
maybe we are not supposed to reconcile and be friends again.

 Maybe we were here to teach one another a lesson,
and once the lesson was taught we were supposed to leave.
You taught me love, lust, pain and trust.
I taught you to never let anyone take advantage of you.
And now maybe, just maybe, this is the end for us.

I thought I was over you, I thought I was okay.
I really thought it this time.
You're no longer for hours and hours and hours in my mind,
I don't think about you as much as I always did.
But I still do. I thought that I could close the door,
telling myself every day that it doesn't matter.
Lying to myself everyday, saying that you don't matter to me. 

But deep down inside it's not okay, because it really does matter.
You do really matter.
I do still love you, I do still want you to like me.
I'm protecting myself by saying that it doesn't matter,
so you won't hurt me,but it's a lie. 

I don't think about you as much as I did, but I still do.
I still can't forget you. I'm just too in love to let go.

When I think about what we used to be,
I think of how a text from you would make my day.
How whether we talked or not would determine if I was happy or sad.
How I was always wondering how you really felt,
never knowing for sure.
What I do know is that I never want to have that feeling
of letting someone have complete control over my emotions ever again,
especially when in the end you just let me down.

Don't worry babe, you will see me again.
You'll see me with a guy who treats me right.
One that knows how to love me.
You'll see all you could have had. 

And you'll regret. Regret like hell.
Regret letting me go.
But the thing I want you to see the most?
You'll see; I survived without you.

I want an unknown relationship.
Not a public one where everyone has to know.
I will not say that I am single nor will I deny the fact that I'm taken,
but nobody has to know with who and what goes on between us.
I think the quietest relationships last the longest.
The number one thing that ruins relationships are their surroundings.

And I know that I should probably just let go,
because I know that it wont work out and everyone tells me that.
So I try to convince myself that its better off that way without him...
But then I'll think of him
and remember his smile that makes me melt
and I cant imagine myself with anyone else
and no matter how hard it will be,
I want to be with him.

I dont know why I keep on loving you
despite the fact that Ill get hurt again just like before.
I never learn cause I dont want to.
Not now when Im still strong
to fall for you over and over again.

只有我自己知道我爱不爱你，
别人说的话语请你不要去听。
我依然还在等待，
等待你会明白。
我会一直等下去，
希望有一天你会回头。
就算会受伤害，
那算什么？

♥

I start to smile unknowingly
It feels like only good things are going to happen

Even if at times,
some things may hurt my heart
If I just think of those wonderful memories of you
I can be happy :)
♥